Ramblings on Religion

Disclaimer: These are my thoughts on religion, the bible, faith, etc. Please don't read if you are not interested in seeing my point of view. Thanks!


Confused. Empty. Unfulfilled. Unsure.

Those are all the words that come to mind when I was thinking about Religion today. I used to be so certain, so secure in my relationship with God.

Now, not so much. I had quite a negative personal experience that I don't want to go into detail about. It has really put a terrible impression on me about religion, church, and my over all relationship with God. So what now? I am left here wondering about my faith. The worst part? I’m not sure how to get back on track. I’m scared to go visit other churches. I’ve shyed away from God and am scared to be intimate again.

In result, religion has been nothing more than a thorn in my side causing hurt and confusion at the thought of it. I know I need to do something about this open wound in my life but I feel completely stuck in the wilderness without a path to bring me back to the Promised Land (so-to-speak). But the truth is, I do have a path. Not only that, but I have a lamp unto my feet (Psalm 119:105)! And that light and path is the spectacular Word of God, filled to the brim with great and precious promises! Oh how our Lord loves each and every person in this world, even me. Me-a person who has turned my back on Him for the last couple months. Me-a habitual sinner. Me-an less than perfect person (and yes, I know He doesn't require me to be perfect, but it's about perfect pursuit, which-for me-has been entirely less than perfect). Not only does he love me but He has the very hairs of my head numbered (Matthew 10:30), He has each tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8), He cherishes me. How could someone have such unconditional love for a person who has acted so hateful toward them? Well, someone can't, God can.

I’m excited that I’m finally coming back around to my faith, it’s been entirely too long.

So, here’s to nothing! Time to open the Good Book once again and see what He has to show me….

1 comment:

  1. That was nice Nikki. I've been through a similar experience myself. Numerous times. And that's what has brought me to the understanding I have now. Which I won't share here because it would take forever, but I'm glad you opened a blog, that's really cool. Hope the move goes well, wherever that is. Take care, Marc.